bursting banana<3(:

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

7:30 PM

My grandma and the-man-she-lives-with are having problems;
She's coming over...again. to spend the night; i think this is the 3rd time this month.
and...well, it only started ever since we threw a bday party for her...
its a good thing i did that :X
...truthfully, everyone knows that they've been fighting for a while
he's been verbally abusing her or something :X but...i mean, we couldn't say anything directly to her. that's just...not something we would do.
anyways, yeah they're having problems and stuff so we're picking her up right now :X well, my parents are; i'm at home typing this, thinking about what drama i'm gonna watch next, and watching NCIS :P lols xD

soccer practice was pretty good today(: haha xD

uhm...gonna apply for ninja sushi, subway & MAYBE this federal government thing for engineers; not sure yet :X i REALLY want the federal gov thing; and then ninja sushi comes next; subway is my last choice x___x lols XD but yeah; we'll see what happens xD lols

637; forever&always

10:15 PM

Bored & doing nothing;
waiting for "Almost Love" to buffer; movie, korean, nuff sed.

3rd Quarter Grades :
Japanese 2: A
Algebra 2: C
Photography 1: C
GT Chemistry: B
AP World History: A
GT English: C
AP European History: D
Overall GPA: 2.85?

Ehh pretty shitty grades, if you ask me; i KNOW i can get an A in english this next quarter; question is..do i want to? LOL XD
AP World History = 5 points, AP European History = 2 points (on GPA scale).

anyways;
i'm super bored.
and tired.
but not really.
7 hours of sleep in last 2 days.
i usually get 7 in one night.
epic fail.
i know.

kuhio day tomorrow.
fun.
i guess.
get to do...stuff.
apeh clsas tomorrow; 10am.
too bad i cant sleep in.
didnt finish the homework yet.
that sucks.

k this is fun;
looks like short poems
but they're not.
they're me being random.

k so i learned something about myself; i really dont give a fck about the rest of the world anymore. i mean, some people try to make me be a part of things; yes, i DO love my friends, i'll do anything for them...but other people? most of them make me sick.

random, i know. just another thing you're gonna have to deal with if you talk to me.

sometimes i miss my HBA friends. sometimes i'm happy i moved. sometimes i want to curl up into a ball and wish the world away. sometimes, i just cant stand what the world has to say about me.

637; forever&always

11:23 PM

K so let me explain something about me that noone else knows yet;
I mean, noone i know in real life will actually read this (except maybe shane, cause he's bothering me about my url right now)...
SOOOOO its not like they can blackmail me or some sht with what i'm about to say/write

1] i hate crying; i only cry about one thing in life; my father, btch from hell, never like talking to him
2] i only cry when i'm with or talking to jenay/andrew or when i'm in the shower and ready for a mental break down
3] i hate when people cry to me; except maybe jenay/andrew/marcie/jo/fewothersimtoolazytolist; THIS is because; fck idk you that well if you're not listed just now; dont talk to me, i wont talk to you; end of story, k goodbye.

REEDIT: i DO cry when i watch a k/j drama; dont think that counts though...since it's not actually about my own feelings; its about how bad i feel for the characters of a fake, make believe story

i DO make exceptions on that last one; when its like, not really CRYING to me; like, someone "venting" to me ...via msn, oovoo, tokbox, stickam, vent (how ironic), etc. then fck yeah i'll deal with your bs (depending on what it is)

but...
seriously
this is the second night in a row i cried...to myself...in the shower; oh fck i might have lied, it might be the third (btw, i WOULD go back & rewrite it, but i dont use the backspace button, when writing a blog; all those i's that are lowercase? that's cause i'm too lazy. all those spelling mistakes? fck that. im here to vent; no need for backspace)

so...reason this time would have to be my insane jealousy problem? ~~idk whatever.~~ i hate being jealous; it screws with my life. it also makes me freaking depressed as sht. and ...i ~~dont~~ like being deperessed.

i really wish i could write EVERYTHING that i feel on here; it would be so much easier for me...not even jenay knows exactly how i feel about this; i think only Aaron would understand (and he's jenay's boyfriend x____x how fail is that). not that i'm saying i told aaron and not jenay; i told jenay...and didnt tell aaron; its just...she doesnt understand how it feels cause...although she's a jealous person too, aaron doesnt talk to other girls or do anything with them or even HANG OUT with anyone except her and his baseball friends...and me and andrew/shane/taryn.

this topic irritates me. it makes me want to kill myself and ... i wish icould;
i wish i didnt live in this house; i wish i didnt have to go to school; i wish i could quit soccer; i wish i could just ...idk go to college already; i wish i could live in japan; i wish i could do whatever i wanted; i wish boys could never hurt me; i wish other GIRLS could never hurt me...

too bad life isn't like that...too bad it will never be...too bad i'm stuck with the same parents and family...too bad that at least ONE of my best friends is moving schools next year...too bad i get jealous too easily...too bad i cant make my friends happy...too bad i can't make SHANE happy...

too bad for sad, emo little me.
fck my messed up, deperessed life.

637; forever&always

10:45 PM

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I decided to fill more internet space with me talking to myself, like how I always do, seeing as how noone actually reads this;
okay that's a lie, i know SOME people that read it; but that's no fun,
since i dont know them in real life :P

heh hi vee (: lols XD

vivian peng, i love you.

just a statement(:

okayy; so...im bored again and nothing to do; gonna watch another korean drama [movie] soon; lols xD i updated that list; cause...well, it got A LOT longer; and...i haven't really been able to watch them recently, *cough* i wonder why, *cough* SHANE *cough* (:

school starts again tomorrow; i wonder how late i can stay up tonight before completely dying out; i found out JUST NOW that i was supposed to do this thing for english; yeah...reading the paper actually really helps :P lols xD

its a controversial issue about the legalization of marijuana in the united states; interesting right? no...i seriously hate that class; looks like i got a C for it this past term;

speaking of grades; i got a C in photography; hahaha i had expected an F, seeing as how i turn in my work late; even though the teacher's seriously a btch. she lost my research paper thin like, 3 times. i even handed it to her once, she wrote something on it, and she still lost it; WTF IS THAT?! seriously; fccn stupid ass teachers at public schools; lols jk (:

hmm...nothing really interesting happening

ohh so my aunty just emailed me (through my cell phone) and i got these pictures of mhy cousin that's pregnant :D lols xD

too bad i hate little kids. and teenagers. and really old people. and adults in general. sht i fccn hate the whole world, actually. whatever. they just all piss me off in some way or another. that's why jenay's amazed i can keep a boyfriend longer than a month...yeah thanks for that, best friend x______x lols

so me and jenay realized just how ALKE we are(:
we're bipolar at the same times lols XD ...well, its really exactly opposite...whenever i'm seriously happy with something in my life; right now, shane. then something goes wrong in hers (right now, aaron). so when i'm happy about soccer & track going at the same time, her mom tells her she cant do judo. she just found out she can again, i think...and now i'm mad, cause my soccer team is fcked up.

hmm we also share a lot of things in common :) we both hate coconut; cause it came from the freaking devil. (: and...we both hate people that irritate us? idk. it just depends; we both love eating :) lols xD...hmmm we get irritated at the same things; like one time, it was freaking RAINING and this guard at school was sitting in the golfcart at the intersection of the crosswalks, where...EVERYWHERE AROUND IT WAS RED DIRT...and it was RAINING so it was really mud :P and..jenay and i are walking towards the cafeteria and of course..this fccn guard is right there in the way of the cross walk and...

when we get pass, our conversation went a little like,
me: "WTF WHY CANT HE FCCN MOVE OUT OF OUR WAY?!"
jenay: "I WAS ABOUT TO SAY THE SAME THING!"
me: "yeah, he's in a fccn golf cart, stupid idiot."
jenay: "must've been public school education!"
andrew: "huh...?"

rofl(:
my friends are awesome; love you guys<3

k this is super long; and it took me 10 minutes of nonstop writing and i'm sure i'm gonna be cracking up at how long i ran on and on about this bullsht...sometime later in life, when i actually decide to go back and read this sht :P

kBYE(:

sayonara; jaa mata ashita (: ...

acually, just jaa mata; ill be back within the hour :P ...maybe not posting, but still(;

637; forever&always

5:48 PM

Korean Dramas:
~~1st Shop of the Coffee Prince~~
~~Autumn Tale~~
~~Boys Over Flowers~~
~~Full House~~
~~Save the Last Dance for Me~~
~~Stairway to Heaven~~
~~You're Beautiful~~

Personal Preference

Hello! Miss
Dream
Full House Season 2
Soulmate
Story of a Man
It Started With A Kiss
Sweet Relationship
Who are you?
Iris
Shining Inheritance
My Girl
Cinderella Man
1% of Anything
East of Eden
Take Care of the Young Lady
Winter Sonata
Autumn's Concerto
Wonderful Life

Korean Movies:
~~100 Days with Mr Arrogant~~
~~200 Lb. Beauty~~
~~A Millionaire's First Love~~
~~Almost Love~~
~~Antique Bakery~~
~~Death Bell~~
~~Heartbreak Library~~
~~Hello Schoolgirl~~
~~Virgin Snow~~

How to Keep My Love
He Was Cool
Too Beautiful to Lie
Someone Special
My Sassy Girl

Japanese Dramas:
~~Absolute Boyfriend (Zettai Kareshi)~~
~~Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge~~
*This one is only found on dramacrazy.net i believe. to my understanding, it was a drama by them; this drama is a lot like hana yori dango (the main 4 guys) but a little different*

~~Gokusen~~
~~Hana Kimi~~
~~Hana Yori Dango~~
~~Hana Yori Dango Season 2~~
*Oguri Shun is in all three of these; HYD (as Hanazawa Rui), Gokusen(as "Uchi"/Uchiyama Haruhiko), Hana Kimi (as Izumi Sano); all three dramas are also based on a girl in the center of a bunch of guys*

Kimi wa Petto
Bloody Monday
Bloody Monday 2
Samurai High School
1 Litre of Tears
Gokusen 2
Gokusen 3
Mei-chan no Shitsuji
Aishiteru
- havent finished; killing though(: always fun haha xD

Japanese Movies:
~~1 Litre of Tears~~
~~Boku wa Imouto ni Koi wo Suru~~
~~Koizora~~
~~Tada Kimi Wo Aishiteru~~

Hana Yori Dango
Gokusen
Death Note
Death Note 2
Death Note 3
Cyborg Girl
I Just Didn't Do It

Other Dramas:
~~Fated to Love You (Taiwanese)~~
~~Miss No Good (Taiwanese)~~

Romantic Princess (Taiwanese)

KEY(:
FAVORITE
Current
~~Finished~~

637; forever&always

5:42 PM

Kay so I havent been on this in a while :P lols XD...wow it's been over a month; anyways...me and shane made 2 months about...idk a week ago i guess? (: lols xD

hmm updates, updates...I rejoined Prestige fam on AAU? I still have someone holding my "Fail" fam for me(: I guess I should really start up my blog for that fam? lols xD idk...i'm kinda lazy lols xD I think that I'm gonna make that fam's colors red&&black(: lols xD.

god and my mom & dad are dumbasses.

k that's all i have to say on that subject.

hmm still grounded; today makes errrr 11 months, 19 days? ):
almost an entire year; i need $700 still
how sad, my life

i have nothing else i really wanna say;
school = spring break atm. gonna fail, i bet.
needa raise those grades next quarter or i'm screwed.
soccer = pretty good i guess? idk. getting better.
i've been doing a lot better, during this new season.
family = as i said; parents are dumbasses;
i dont really talk to my siblings; they're just...yeah
shane = only thing going semi-good in my life right now?
friends = HAHAHAHHAHAHA wow; well, spent all break with jenay(:
andrew & taryn are just...how they always are;
got to hang with stanford && kagz; never do :P

what else, what else?
nothing?

shooties, then

SAYONARA; JA MATA!! :D

new goal: learn more japanese (AND REMEMBER IT!)

updating my "drama list"; it'll be on a new post soon

637; forever&always